No one tells you about labor gone bad, you only hear the happy wonderful stories of women who go into the hospital and have there babies drug and pain free. None of these apply to me.
I was 19 and overdue, my doctor and I decided on an induction. I went to the hospital was started on Cervidil, later with Pitocin. Contractions were coming around nice. I could handle it, time passed I was dilating fine and they rupture my bag.
I was given Nubian (it did not help!) Then before I knew it I was in labor for 24hrs. I was tired and I was in so much pain, especially in my back. I was not feeling any pressure at all. I asked for the epidural, more like screaming for my epidural, after that I felt sssooo much better.
No later than that the nurse comes in to announce that it would be best to have a c section! I said no and they should let me push since I was at 9cm already.
I spoke to my doctor and she said she would let a lil bit of time pass to see what would happen. But nothing did happen. I did not want a c section!
They transferred my to the operating room and less than 5mins my son was born. I was so happy I finally got to see him. It just took all the pain away. I fell in love right away. But once they had me in the recovery room alone the thoughts of disappointment followed.
I felt less of a woman for not having a vaginal birth. I was so in love with my son but I was mad at myself. I was jealous in a sense of other woman.
Now my son is 2 and I’m slowly getting over those thoughts but I’m scared of having an other child. I do not want an other surgery. Just a lil bit of advice EXPECT THE UN-EXPECTED!
by Erika (Madera, CA)